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30 June 2005

BlogThings

Sometimes it feels really nice to engage in things like these.





You Know You're Filipino When....


Your middle name is your mother's maiden name.

Your parents call each other "Mommy" and "Daddy."

You have uncles and aunts named "Boy," "Girlie," or "Baby."

You have relatives whose nicknames consist of repeated syllables like "Jun-Jun," "Ling-Ling," and "Mon-Mon."

You call the parents of your friends and your own parents' friends "Tito" and "Tita."

You have four or five names.

You greet your elders by touching their hands to your forehead.

You always kiss your relatives on the cheek whenever you enter or leave the room.

You follow your parents' house rules even if you are over 18.

You live with your parents until and at times even after you're married.

You decorate your dining room wall with a picture of the "Last Supper."

You keep your furniture wrapped in plastic or covered with blankets.

You have a Sto. Nino shrine in your living room.

You have a piano that no one plays.

You keep a tabo in your bathroom.

You use Vicks Vapor rub as an insect repellant.

You eat with your hands.

You eat more than three times a day.

You think a meal is not a meal without rice.

You think sandwiches are snacks, not meals.

Your dining table has a merry-go-round (lazy Susan) in the middle.

You bring baon to work everyday.

Your pantry is never without Spam, Vienna sausage, corned beef, and sardines.

You love to eat daing or tuyo.

You prop up one knee while eating.

ou eat your meal with patis, toyo, suka, banana catsup, or bagoong.

Your tablecloths are stained with toyo circles.

You love sticky desserts and salty snacks.

You eat fried Spam and hot dogs with rice.

You eat mangoes with rice--with great GUSTO!

You love "dirty" ice cream.

You love to eat, yet often manage to stay slim.

You put hot dogs in your spaghetti.

Everything you eat is sauted in garlic, onion, and tomatoes.

You order a "soft drink" instead of soda.

You hang a rosary on your car's rear view mirror.

You get together with family at a cemetery on All Saint's Day to eat, drink, and tell stories by your loved ones' graves.

You play cards or mahjong and drink beer at funeral wakes.

You think Christmas season begins in October and ends in January.

Your second piece of luggage is a balikbayan box.

You've mastered the art of packing a suitcase to double capacity.

You collect items from airlines, hotels, and restaurants as "souvenirs."

You feel obligated to give pasalubong to all your friends and relatives each time you return from a trip.

You use paper foot outlines when buying shoes for friends and relatives.

You're a fashion victim.

You can convey 30 messages with your facial expression.

You hold your palms together in front of you and say "excuse, excuse" when you pass in between people or in front of the TV.

You ask for the bill at a restaurant by making a rectangle in the air.

You cover your mouth when you laugh.

You respond to a "Hoy!" or a "Pssst!" in a crowd.

You'll answer "Malapit lang!"--no matter the distance--when asked how far away a place is located.

Goldilocks is more than a fairy tale character to you.

You refer to power interruptions as "brownouts."

You love to use the following acronyms: CR for comfort room, DI for dance instructor, DOM for dirty old man, TNT for tago nang tago, KJ for kill joy, KSP for kulang sa pansin, OA for over-acting, TL for true love, BF for boyfriend and GF for girlfriend.

You say "rubber shoes" instead of sneakers, "ball pen" instead of pen, "stockings" instead of pantyhose, "pampers" instead of diapers, "ref" or "prijider" instead of refrigerator, "Colgate" instead of toothpaste, "canteen" instead of cafeteria, and "open" or "close" instead of turn on or turn off (as in the lights).

You use an umbrella for shade on hot summer days.

You like everything imported or "state-side."

You love ballroom dancing, bowling, pusoy, mah jong, billiards, and karaoke.

You have a relative who is a nurse.

When you're in a restaurant, you wipe your plate and utensils before using them.

You can squeeze 15 passengers into your five seater car without a second thought.

You wave a pom-pom on a stick around the food to keep the flies away.

You always ring a doorbell twice, assuming that the first ring was not heard.

You let the phone ring twice before answering, lest you appear overly eager.

Your other piece of luggage is a balikbayan box.

You use a rock to scrub yourself in the bath or shower.

You're proud to be a Filipino - and you pass these jokes on to all your Filipino friends!







Your Japanese Name Is...









Dai Kawashi





Your EQ is
127

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.



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This and That (5)

It seems like everybody is leaving the country to search for greener pastures somewhere. To Suzette and Richard, take care and hopefully see you soon! And to Chummy, good luck in Utah.

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I saw this in an online classified ads:

seller:
Harry Potter Books 1-4
Brand-New, Soft-Bound


buyer:
Are they hardbound?


*me thinks* with an evil grin. I just do not want to spit out the word.

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I recently took this survey being conducted by the Massachusetts Institute of Technology. The Institute was undertaking an academic study regarding the role of weblogs in the lives of their authors. My blog was "randomly selected as part of a small group among millions to represent the entire community of weblog authors."

I am actually interested to learn about the results of this web survey.


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My love for books never wanes so I recently got 4 new books to read.

  1. The Book of Golden Wisdom


  2. The Templar Revelation


  3. The Breakup Diaries


  4. Lonely Planet Philippines, 8th Edition


For now, I am planning to collect chick lit from Summit Books. I am planning to get the next 2.

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I just discovered that the spaghetti from Goldilocks was so yummy. Our deputy ED who celebrated his birthday last week had a lunch treat for us. We decided to have a variety this time like pizza from Yellow Cab, chicken from Kenny Roger's and hmm...I forgot already but I really love the stapeji so I took more than a share of my usual plate. Hehehe. =)






29 June 2005

Spell It Out

Ice Ice BabyvA, SeattleN


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This and That (4)

It has been a while since I last blogged. Not that I was busy but more of not having the will to write anything at that moment. A lot of things had took place and I was trying to spend the last few days of my vacation as enjoyable as possible before day 1 of next month begins. July will undoubtedly be my alpha month and I do not know when will the omega of it be since our Policy Dialogue was postponed for 4 months. Projects will pile up.

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What is happening to my country? Our President already admitted that it was her voice that was on the tape. Her family is also involved in a jueteng scandal. Well, it was mightily admirable for her to admit that but I could not imagine that what she did was excusable. Anxious to protect her votes so she contacted an election officer? Of course, she knew that act was prohibited. I don't think she is ignorant of it. She is too smart for that. Her explanation to the people was plausible enough but she made it looked like that the people, us, were stupid enough to accept it just like that. Your speech, Madame President, sounded like you just want us to accept that; a case of forgive and forget.

Making any such call was a lapse in judgment
(Statement of President GLORIA MACAPAGAL ARROYO)

MGA minamahal kong kababayan.

For the last several weeks, the issue of the tape recordings has spun out of control. Tonight, I want to set the record straight. You deserve an explanation from me, because you are the people I was elected to serve.

As you recall, the election canvassing process was unnecessarily slow even after the election results were already in and the votes had been counted.

I was anxious to protect my votes and during that time had conversations with many people, including a Comelec official. My intent was not to influence the outcome of the election, and it did not. As I mentioned, the election had already been decided and the votes counted. And as you remember, the outcome had been predicted by every major public opinion poll, and adjudged free, fair and decisive by international election observers, and our own Namfrel.

That said, let me tell you how I personally feel. I recognize that making any such call was a lapse in judgment. I'm sorry. I also regret taking so long to speak before you on this matter. I take full responsibility for my actions and to you and to all those good citizens who may have had their faith shaken by these events. I want to assure you that I have redoubled my efforts to serve the nation and earn your trust.

Nagagambala ako. Maliwanag na may kakulangan sa wastong pagpapasya ang nangyaring pagtawag sa telepono. Pinagsisisihan ko ito ng lubos. Pinananagutan ko nang lubusan ang aking mga ginawa, at humihingi ako ng tawad sa inyo, sa lahat ng mga butihing mamamayan na nabawasan ng tiwala dahil sa mga pangyayaring ito. Ibig kong tiyakin sa inyo na lalo pa akong magsisikap upang maglingkod sa bayan at matamo ang inyong tiwala.

I took office with a mandate to carry out a plan for the nation. Since that time, I have focused on making the tough but necessary decisions to make up for years of economic neglect. We passed a comprehensive, fiscally responsible national budget; raised new and necessary revenues to reinvest in the people; and implemented new anti-corruption measures that have led to the highest collection of taxes in history.

Nothing should stand in the way of this work, or the next phase of my reform agenda, which includes new investments in education and social services with our new revenues; and an expansion of our successful anti-corruption and lifestyle checks.

That is why I want to close this chapter and move on with the business of governing.

I ask each and everyone of you to join hands with me in a show of unity, to help forge One Philippines, where everyone is equal under the law, and where everyone has the opportunity to use their God-given talents to make a better life.

Our nation is strong and getting stronger. The progress is steady and I ask you to walk with me on this journey to rebuild our great nation. I remain your humble servant and promise you that I will fulfill my constitutional oath of office to serve the people to the best of my ability.

God Bless the Philippines.


But of course, I do not agree with anybody to oust her and launch another Edsa revolution. So much for that. I am really beginning to hate hearing about a possible Edsa uprising with numbers tagged into it. It does not sound noble at all. No need to unseat her because I do not think there is someone who would be less manipulative than her. What this country needs right now is a leader who talks less and accomplishes more. President GMA can do that despite what she got herself into. If she want to redeem herself (though it will really be quite hard for her since she fooled the people), this is the right time for her to shut up her mouth and work her ass off. Of course, we, as a citizen of this beleaguered country should do our share and help her to make this nation rise up again.

To our dear Lord Almighty, may you bless us all.


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We really have a knack for complicating things; turning a smoke into a fire. We have a penchant for jumping at burning bandwagons. With the latest ruckus happening in Philippine politics relating to PGMA's probability of cheating during the elections, this lady senator did not even waste time to brew her own interest in the situation. Nyahaha! You really proved to be what you are now. To think I admired you for being one of a kind but you were just like everybody else in politics. I am glad you showed your true color 3 years ago. I pity you.

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I feel poorer. You feel poorer. Everyone does.

Prices of everything increases and yet our salaries remain the same. Aside from the 2-pesos increase in transport fares, the possibility of another 3-pesos fare hike is imminent once diesel price hiked up to 45 pesos a liter.

My mind is currently probing the possibility and impossibility of acquiring an increased salary using the framework of cyclical flow of the economy. So far, nothing is clear yet.






22 June 2005

Movies Galore

I am becoming a movie addict lately. Here are what I have to say about the movies I had watched for the past 2 months.

  1. Batman Begins - Unlike other people, I am not really a fan. Though I had watched some, this one is the best among all those Batman movies that I had seen. I pre-judged that Christian Bale would make the movie a failure but he delivered it great and well. I liked the sequence of how Bruce Wayne become the Gotham savior, Batman. His transformation was more noticeable in his physical attributes. Alfred the butler was very endearing here with his witty lines and bouts of humor.



  2. Sin City - Honestly, I got lost in the story. I did not know that this film was based in a comic book. I did not understand the connections of the main characters. I learned later on that it was basically a tale about a town of the corrupt, toughies, dames of the night, crooked cops, sadists, vigilantes and reluctant heroes. Each had its own story to tell. I did not like it all the more due to gruesome, bloody, absolutely repugnant scenes.



  3. Mr. and Mrs. Smith - I heard a lot of negative comments about this film but I did not care. Angelina Jolie is one of my 3 favorite women icons and I really, really admire her. Brad Pitt, well, I jumped up in the crazed Pitt-wagon. Could you believe to be married to a guy who did not even know for how long had he been married? Was it 5 or 6 years ago? :) Mr. and Mrs. Smith was a story of astonishingly laughable, sleek action of an otherwise glorious but muddled married life.



  4. Unleashed - I am a lover of Chinese movies and I love Jet Li. If you are, I suggest you better not watch this. It was a degrading characterization and I really could not believe that Jet Li accepted to portray in this movie. It was sickening to watch it.



  5. Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith - Star Wars Epsode I: Phantom of the Menace was the reason why I am laxed now in watching sci-fi movies. It was a big no-no then. But I had begun to love Star Wars episodes. I joined the throng of fanatics (but I am more on the lighter side, if there are really light core fanatics) in waiting for this film. Anyway, I cold say that this was the best among the first 3 episodes. George Lucas at his very best. It was a tearjerker. It was the darkest, most emotionally intimate George Lucas SW film. I fund light saber duel between Anakin and Obi-wan fantastic and well-choreographed. As I mentioned before, I thought I was watching a play because the movie watchers stood and loudly applauded. I remain seated but I gave a big clap as well. :)



  6. Kingdom of Heaven - The film was in the context of the endless battle between the Christians and the Muslims for the holy city of Jerusalem. Actually, I watched this film only because of Liam Neeson whom I admired first in Star Wars Episode I and in the Schindler's List. I sort of liked the film for it showed complementing respect and consideration as possibilities between the Christians and the Muslims. Balian and Saladin mutually decided not to go on war with the possibility of the Christians to endure since they were no matched to the great troops of the other party.



  7. In Good Company - I gave this movie a thumbs-up sign for showing what life is all about and what really matters the most.

    1. Enjoy your way up; don't rush things.
    2. Always remember that in haste, one tends to leave something behind.
    3. Don't think that being younger and more energetic is tantamount to being smarter.
    4. Family will always be family. Love, warmth and togetherness - that's family.



  8. xXx: State of the Nation - I was never able to watch the prequel of this movie that starred hunk Vin Diesel in the title role. Watching its sequel that stars Ice Cube [what kind of namae (name in Nihonggo) is that?] made me realize that I like the kind of action I saw in this movie. Normally, movies with this kind of script (political conspiracy leading to a coup d'etat) will bore you of speeches and monologues of nationalism and patriotism. Here, you'll get dizzy with quick, agile, bone-breaking stunts and glitzy automobiles.

    Why do I presume that there will be another actor playing the role of xXx in its next sequel (is there such a phrase as next sequel? Correct me if I am wrong, please)? I think Samuel Jackson put that idea in my head and my grey matter hatched it.



  9. The Jacket - In the beginning, I got confused where exactly the story was heading. As the story unfolds, I got a clearer picture. When Jack Starks played by Adrien Brody was tied to a jacket and placed in a morgue drawer, I felt cold shivers ran down through my spine. I tried to picture myself in his place and it was so frighteningly revolting. Also, the movie did not explain how possible it was to time-travel 15 years into the future. It was also disturbing to think that his future lover (played by Keira) was the young girl he helped out when they got stranded. Yeee.



  10. Sahara - I rarely admire movies based on books because more often than not, the movies usually deviate some important details from the books. Based on a novel written by Clive Cussler (which has become a favorite lately), this film was one of those types that kept me glued on my seat. It was a delightful action adventure teeming with breathtaking action and hilarity. I gave a high-five to Matthew McConaughey playing the character of Dirk Pitt and to Steve Zahn as Al Giordino, Pitt's loyal sidekick. I recommend for anyone to check this out because you will love it, laughing yourself out all the time.



  11. The Interpreter - An appealing movie; the flow kept me guessing, making me think and wonder. I had never seen Kidman looking as chic as she did playing the starring role of a UN translator. It seemed like her much publicized break-up with Hollywood's one of the sexiest man did much good to her physically.



  12. The Wedding Date - Debra Messing & Dermot Mulroney did a fine act in this movie. Hahay. I got a crush on Mulroney. *sigh* Such a gentleman. It was outrightly romantic and surprisingly funny. The songs that were carried by the movie made it more romantic to watch. Though on the other side, it would have been more exciting if the film provided innuendos about the romance between Kat & Nick truly worth experiencing. Side note: a broken-hearted NY career woman who hired a professional escort at a fee of $6,000 who would pretend as her boyfriend so as not to look pathetic at her half-sister's wedding where his ex-bf would be the bestman. Desperate problem calling for desperate solution? That's already pathetic, acting out of sheer desperation. Getting your heart broken is part of the love aspect but it is not the right reason to cut off your second chance to love.



  13. Hide and Seek - I thought it was a suspense thriller but in totality, the plot of the movie was incredibly stupid. I wonder if Robert de Niro's acting capability going down the drain. I liked Dakota Fanning (as usual) and she naturally portrayed her role.

    "Charlie, Charlie. Come out, come out! Where are you?"



  14. Closer - All about agonized human relationships. It was emotionally disturbing; dialogues were brutally straightforward. I was sort of disappointed with Julia Robert's role here which was very unlikely of her films. Clive Owen demonstrated a very good performance; just look at the romantic anguish painted all over his face.



  15. Miss Congeniality 2: Armed and Fabulous - This is the funniest movie ever. It was very refreshing to see the usual comic charm of Sandra Bullock as injected in the movie.



  16. The Pacifier - Oh, Vin Diesel was so lovable here. I had been laughing out loud in the entire duration of this movie. When the housekeeper - a Dracula descendant look-alike left the house, Shane was left alone - learning how to deal with changing diapers, directing a play, teaching how to drive, putting a toddler to sleep, telling a good night story, teaching self-defense. He looked so cute in the diaper scenes and the part where he wore an ammunition belt bearing feeding bottles. The hilarious part was when Lulu asked Shane why his boobs were so big. Ok, they're not boobs. Hehehe.






21 June 2005

Pride Boost

I was once a believer that hope is still beaming somewhere for the Philippines. Despite what had happened then, I never lost hope. I even negatively reacted to an article written by someone who by blood belongs to my race despite residing in an alien territory. I just hated the way she maligned the brown race and our country. It was like she had nothing to do with us all. That time, I was contemplating of throttling her if ever I saw her.

For a while, my belief for my country waned. For a while, I lost hope. I got tired of listening to the daily news. I lost interest in reading the daily broadsheets where every headline implied bleakness and utter misery. I was drained by corruption in all levels, nonstop threats of coup d'etat and the hell with future Edsa-counting 3, 4 revolutions, inflation, jueteng, bombings, fare hikes and so on and so forth.

So I started searching for work opportunities & scholarship grants overseas and even immigration possibilities. I was even disturbingly encouraged by these 2 men who were high-ranking officials from separate multinational firms when they decided to seek greener pastures somewhere far from this land. I could not blame them. Nobody could blame them. They admitted that they were ashamed of it but they were only pulling their roots from here to the greener meadows for the mere sake of their children and the entire family.

I really felt so sad and could not believe that it was happening.

And then recently, this jueteng scandal which tagged the President's family. Now, it seems that the entire First Family is wallowing in their own pits. President Macapagal-Arroyo is being accused of committing election fraud in 2004; that she was not the rightful occupant of the Malacanan Palace; that it was supposed to be the deceased actor-presidentable FPJ. All these that involve the Madame President was due to a beta tape that caught the President and controversial COMELEC Commissioner Garcillano in a very guilty conversation pertaining to the ongoing election. The beat tape was released to the public by Atty. Samuel Ong, a former high-ranking director of the National Bureau of Investigation. The tape was allegedly acquired through a wire-tapping operation which is basically against the law.

I could accept that the lower house of the legislative body were prone to such; but not the Senate. But then, I was very disillusioned with the entire legislature when the entire Senate got a questionable character during former President Estrada's impeachment trial. Next, the judicial system got tainted as well. When Erap was relieved from Malacanan, I thought that President Macapagal-Arroyo would deliver the Filipinos and the Philippines to a higher level that would wash away the soiled impression of this great nation. I really do not want to point a finger at her for I have seen her efforts to strengthen and bring back our tattered dignity. The scandal involving her and her family is so great that even my rational side cannot acknowledge.

As I mentioned earlier, it was only for a while that my belief for my country waned; and that for a while, I lost hope. I have read this article by
Rome Jorge who I think is a co-member at Pinoywriters. His writing has uplifted my morale as a Pinoy. Please read on.


*CULTURE VULTURE*
By Rome Jorge
*Defending the Fatherland*


Last Independence Day a foreigner asked me if there was any pride left in being Filipino. She complained her Filipino laborers were lazy and her Filipino relatives were dependent. She challenged me to name one decent politician, site examples of progress and define something purely Filipino.

It was the exhibit opening of Wawi Navarroza's photo exhibit Polysaccharide: The Dollhouse Drama at the Blacksoup Project Artspace at the Cubao X (formerly the shoe expo and now the latest Bohemian enclave complete with galleries, bookstores and boutiques). The irony of her prejudice couldn't be more apparent. Here we all were celebrating independent artistic efforts. Here in attendance were such valiant artists as indigenous lullaby singer and actress Chin-Chin Gutierrez, jazz crooner Isha, photographer Marlon Despuez, contemporary dancer Gio Respall, writer Karen Kunnawicz, award-winning film editor Tara Illenberger, to name but a few. To anyone looking for heroic Filipinos, here they were all around us.

I told her she was looking at the wrong places if she was looking for good men in politics; criminality attracts criminals and you can't expect any better from such a profession. The heroes of the day are busy sending remittances from abroad or forging a Filipino culture here. More important than politics, it is culture that needs attention. Corruption and lack of nationalism are cultural problems that cannot be cured solely by changing political paradigms.

I told her such generalizations were prejudice; the world abounds with sloths, cheats and traitors of every color and creed. To notice only those from the Philippines so as to validate her own preconceived notions was racism.

I told her she was part of the problem if she came here looking for cheap labor; you get what you give, whether it is with wages or with trust. Besides, her office was not the whole Philippines and her eyes were not those of God's.

I told her it was an exciting time in a young nation's life; we are witnessing a culture under construction. Either pitch in or get the hell out of the way.

I told her that Filipino culture is essentially inclusive; one cannot define it by purity. Every influence enriches it.

And I told her being half-Filipino is no license to put down her own people; no one should mess with our country, least of all ourselves. The essence of being a Filipino is that it cannot be denied. Some may switch citizenships when convenient, but the true Filipino carries the burden of representing his country whether he likes it or not.


*Dysfunctional, but family nonetheless*

It is hard being a Filipino these days. Rigged elections and tiring revolts, politicians of every stripe that lack ideology and morals, militants and military that have both proven themselves corrupt fratricidal failures ­--all do not endear love of country. A history of colonization and invasion does not foster pride either.

Loving the Philippines is like a loving an alcoholic father. He is a self-destructive and potentially a lost cause, a shameful load of emotional baggage and a burden that can drag you down. But he's the only father you've got. You can run away, change your name or opt for adoption, but you cannot change the childhood of your memory or the blood in your veins.

The Philippines is family. You don't choose your family. You love your family not because of what they give you, but because they simply are. You cannot change fate, but you can take responsibility for it. You do the right thing because no one else will take care of family but one of its own.

Fate is more than history just as family is more than heredity. Regardless of the circumstance we are born into, we carry the burden of uplifting ourselves. We curse no one but ourselves when we use our past as excuses for failure. We hurt no one but ourselves when we deny our own heritage. It takes a family to save a family. It takes a nation to save a nation.

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FROM:
http://www.manilatimes.net/national/2005/jun/20/yehey/life/20050620lif6.html






17 June 2005

100 Things About Me

  1. You can call me: Ivan, Ivy, Fran, Frances, Franny, Yves, Ibiang. You can call me Bitch so long as you let me know that you will.


  2. I am uber-ly & forever addicted to chocolates. Basically, I prefer dark chocolates but milk choco bars will do just fine. I do not want nuts or almonds in my chocolates. When I am depressed, gloomy or mad, I make a dash to the convenience store or supermarket to buy a couple of bars and that saves my day.


  3. I like my eyes because of the natural curled lashes. Besides that, I am almost blind. I have a grade of 700-750 for both eyes.

  4. I wear contact lenses and as of the other day, I got a new set. Thank God!


  5. I am a bitch and a wicked witch. Hehehe. That is my other persona.


  6. I sleep with 2 pillows and a stuff toy.


  7. I love the hues of purple. I am addicted to this color.


  8. Since college and up to now, I still intend to get another piercing in my ears.


  9. I want to try wearing those slightly bigger, rounded, silver earrings. Do you think it will look good in me? :) I am planning to drop by at Ibay's in Baguio to buy them.


  10. Last two or three years ago, I was desperate to gain a few muscles here and there. I wanted to gain weight since I was only see-sawing around 44-45 kilos. Now, I am having a hard time cutting off my food intake. I am now growing and getting heavier at 50-51 kilos. I am petite and it does not look good on me.


  11. I use mousse and a leave-on conditioner to manage my hair after washing.


  12. I got a boyish-cut hair. I do like it since it is easier to manage. But I really want to have my long hair back. It does not matter if it is curly-wavy.


  13. I prefer flavored lipsticks. I love raspberries.


  14. I feel yucky when my fingernails are not cut short. But I really want to have 'semi-long' manicured nails.


  15. When I was in my teens, I got loads of shameful zits. Now, I can manage to have zit-free face if I want to; that is, if I avoid oily foods.


  16. I love to jog at BayWalk. Though, lately I fail to do so because of TGIF hangover; not from excessive drinking but because I am way too tired to rise up early in the morning.


  17. I am actually an outdoor person.


  18. Sports that I engage into are: bowling, billiards, tennis, badminton, basketball (not much, though), squash.


  19. I do not know how to swim, much more to float. I love the water but the thought of drowning helplessly scares the hell out of me.


  20. I hate beer. I do not drink everytime I go out. But when I am with friends in a bar, I prefer to drink concoctions.


  21. I am scared of losing myself in a drink. I do not want to let go of my inhibitions in front of other people. The thought drives me crazy.


  22. I do not know how to ride a bike nor drive a car. The closest thing I can do is to ride & drive a sidecar in Burnham Park in Baguio and car-racing via Daytona at Timezone.


  23. I talk a lot but I am never good at impromptu speech. In fact, I get goosebumps, my knees turn jelly-o and a possible nervous breakdown if subjected to such stress.


  24. I do not actually like carbonated drinks since they cut my supply of air for proper breathing. They hinder me from engaging in any form of activity. I prefer coffee, iced tea, lemonade or choco/mango milk shakes.


  25. I am a coffee-addict. I long for 'kapeng barako' of Batangas. I love Starbuck's mocha frapuccino, Bo's Coffee Club's iced cafe mocha & New York Cafe's oreo frappucino.


  26. I am very fond of playing at Timezone. I love shooting basketball, car-racing via Daytona/Ferrari, air hockey, Time Crisis.


  27. My practicum in Batangas instilled in me the desire to see & feel nature.


  28. I love nature. That what got me into mountainclimbing in the first place.


  29. I climb mountains during the weekend to release physical stress of city life.


  30. I love to travel a lot.


  31. Baguio City is my primary escape from the hustle and bustle of the metropolis.


  32. I love to travel. I prefer to travel alone, explore new places. But if I am with a group, it has to be a small one or else, I will go ballistic.


  33. When I was younger, I thought I was a loner. Then, I discovered that I prefer places with many people like bars, beaches and malls. So I said I am not an introvert. But I learned that I am not comfortable with a big group where everybody knows everyone. It has to be a small group of people I know or a sea of unfamiliar faces. I do not know why but the effect is that I am most of the time irritable or throwing unforgivable tantrums.


  34. My faith is currently at its lowest low but I surely want to feel God's warmth again.


  35. I rarely get sick but when I do, I am really sick. That means, staying in bed for 1-2 weeks tops.


  36. I am actually snobbish but I can also be wacky if I feel like it. Basically, I am very outspoken. I am that bad.


  37. I laugh like a horse.


  38. I was born in the Year of the Horse.


  39. Maybe that is why I have a great adoration for horses.


  40. I love horse-back riding 'though I have not ridden for a long time.


  41. I have a habit of kicking when someone jokes with me.


  42. Snooty guys annoy me, a lot.


  43. The traits that endears a guy to me: He has to be smart, thoughtful, has a sense of humor, knows his way in this life.


  44. I do not like waiting for a long time.


  45. I want things said into my face rather than hearing it from somebody else.


  46. When I am really, really mad, I just keep silent and never utter a word.


  47. If I am mad, just leave me alone and I will figure out how to reach you.


  48. If I am fuming and I badger you with words, I am not actually mad; just a little pissed off and a small hug, a bar of chocolate or a joke will appease me.


  49. If I am fuming and I badger you with questions, you better answer them the way I ask because I am really after details; it will only infuriate me if you try to sidetrack me with wrong answers or sweet words.


  50. I feel really good if I am hugged.


  51. Big, tight hugs comfort me.


  52. I am fond of multi-tasking. I can do 3 of any at the same time: cook, read a book, do the laundry, watch a movie via dvd, sweep the floor, mop the house, throw garbage, water the plants, write a letter, compose a poem, talk over the phone, play Snood or Text Twist or blog. I love doing all of these if and only if I am alone in the house.


  53. I am at my better self (not best, though) if I procrastinate.


  54. I love work pressure. I feel better when I put in a lot of hard work.


  55. I prefer working alone. But I can manage to work in a group where everyone really works.


  56. I want a change in my work environment. A new job, perhaps?


  57. I love to do things my way.


  58. I want to go back to school and acquire a higher degree. I will be applying next year, either Environmental Science or Public Governance.


  59. I am not much of a neat, organized person but I make sure I tidy up my stuff and the house a little too often than sometimes. Hehehe, if you get what I mean.


  60. I hate it when the people I am living with are untidy and very disorganized. I tend to sneak in and throw their trash for them (that mean, you better clean up or else, you will find your treasure my trash).


  61. I take 1-2 days of vacation leave when I feel like I have to clean the house. This gives me the freedom and solitude to do my own style of cleaning. That means, nobody to tell me that this one should not be thrown or that one is not a garbage. Oh, stuff like that.


  62. I am addicted to our local dish, sinigang. I want it very sour. I prefer to have it cooked in real tamarind.


  63. Another dish that I really like is the beef steak. I also like liver steaks.


  64. I know how to cook these two dishes.


  65. I am corned beef-fanatic. I really like this canned food.


  66. Aside from choco milk shakes, I like ripe mango shakes.


  67. My most favorite fruit is the avocado. Next is the very green, sour mango. Here, it is called the 'manggang kalabaw.'


  68. I love to read a lot. Except for science fiction, I almost read everything.


  69. My favorite authors are John Grisham, Dan Brown, Dean Koontz, Perry Mason, Sidney Sheldon, Frederick Forsyth, Clive Cussler, Margaret Truman, F. Sionil Jose, Nick Joaquin.


  70. I am currently addicted to chick lit books. :)


  71. If other people collect stamps & coins, I collect books.


  72. Dex is the one who bought my collection of Dan Brown's books.


  73. I really wanted to be a writer but I do not think I am a good one. So I just write and write. I prefer the essay types.


  74. I am still hoping that I can publish a book of my own someday.


  75. I used to compose poems when I was younger. I still do now but they are only for my own enchantment. Emily Dickinson and Pablo Neruda are my favorites.


  76. Bags are my vanities. I buy & collect, collect, collect.


  77. I love accessories that complement my get-up. In fact, I have a collection of mixed pearl, beaded, ethnic, casual - necklaces, anklets, bands, etc.


  78. I cannot leave the house without my earrings on. In case I found the other pair's 'pakao' missing, I feel very uncomfortable and I won't miss the time to buy a new one on the same day.


  79. I really have a hard time getting real close to people. I just cannot fully trust anyone about everything in my life.


  80. I am hot-tempered, sarcastic, impatient and can really be mean sometimes.


  81. But I have compassion for the poor, for injustice and for those who deserves it.


  82. When I really want something, I defy orders and too stubborn to accept anything beyond everything.


  83. I am ambitious and have high hopes for myself. In short, I am driven to succeed.


  84. I easily get bored. I want variety in my life.


  85. I am not much to singing but I like to listen to a number of favorites. In a videoke, I do not like to hold the microphone when everybody sings. I hate singing solo.


  86. I am not actually a movie junkie but Dex bad-influenced me. :)


  87. When I feel like it, I shop like shopping will cease to exist.


  88. I love french fries, spaghetti, McDo's regular burger meal, garlic bread, Pringles and anything potato.


  89. If somebody accuses me of doing something that I never did in the first place, I fight back. I don't care how nasty it becomes so long as I know I am not guilty.


  90. But if I am, I shut up. If it is not serious, I charmed my way out; if not, I really squeeze my mouth shut.


  91. If I feel hurt, I tend to withdraw away from people's attention.


  92. I hurt myself when I do not want to cry in public or when I hurt the feelings of people I love the most.


  93. If ever I have a family of my own, I want to have 6 kids (3 boys & 3 girls). But that's ideally. Three or four will do so long I have a boy as my eldest child. :)


  94. I prefer a small, comfortable, quaint house. My future kids will take care of the lively ambiance. But if they are not yet present, the husband will. :)


  95. The countries that hold greater attraction for me are France and Thailand.


  96. I had been to Japan once. I love Kyoto and its rich culture. I almost visited Thailand in 2002 and Malaysia this year


  97. Once I have my own digital camera, nothing can stop me from shooting and travelling. You bet your peso on that.


  98. I wonder how Dex has put up with me and my attitude for almost 2 years. Is he a persevering angel or a plain martyr? Oh, do tell me please. :)


  99. I really want to live my life to the fullest.


  100. I want an Oreo now!






15 June 2005

Memory

If you read this journal,
even if I don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad,
just as long as it happened.

Then post this on your journal.
See what people remember about you.
Malay natin,
minsan sa ilalim ng kalangitan,
may moment tayong pinagsaluhan.






13 June 2005

Music Baton

As passed to me by Paul, here's my piece.

Total volume of music files in my computer:
I am not so sure the total size of the MP3's that is stored in my computer's hard disk. It is scattered all over - my brother's account and mine. Basically, it is Dex who downloaded them all. I request a certain song and he downloads it. When he thinks the song is nice, better check it and you know that it is in there.


Last CD I bought:
I really don't buy CDs anymore. Hehehe. The last one that I myself bought was that of Regine Velasquez'. I already forgot the title. Something like R2-? Hehehe.

With the onslaught of burning CDs containing MP3s, it surely made listening to music a little less expensive and satisfying. Lately, it is Dex who burns them for me.



Song playing right now:

Tuloy Pa Rin by Neocolors
This song gives me a positive boost, not just about occasional heartaches but life itself. I make sure to listen to this when I am feeling so low and lonely.


Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:

1. I'll Be There For You by Rembrandts
Ever since I got hooked with Friends in college I could not help but sing along with it. I have lots of friends but I could only count less than a handful that is for real. This song is one of the songs I really wanna sing with them.

I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me, too.

No one could ever know me.
No one could ever see me.
Seems you're the only one who knows
what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with.
Make it through all the mess with.
Someone I'll always laugh with.
Even at my worst, I'm best with....
you - yeah


2. From This Moment On by Shania Twain
Hay. Whenever I hear this song, I feel like am so blessed to have him. Yeah, this is the effect of being too smitten. This song totally caps what I feel for this person. Foolish it may sound but everytime I hear it playing, I cry buckets. For me, it's the perfect wedding song.

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better, for worse, I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you,
can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on


It doesn't matter if my tears of joy ruin my make-up or my mascara during my wedding day.

3. Cold and Empty by Kid Rock
A sad song it may be but it is the perfect semi-senti song for me. The rhythm and the smoothness of the song brings me to a place where I can be with my lonesome self.

Where am I supposed to go
My only home was in your soul
I know that I can't stay here
And drown in a pool of tears
Should I pack my pride
And face this life alone


4. Salamat by The Dawn
This is the ultimate barkada sing-along song. It reminds me of the good, old, happy days with my close friends. Those were the days I surely would want to relive.

Salamat at sa pag pawi ng uhaw ay may darating na araw
Kay tamis ng ating samahan
Sa lungkot at kaligayahan
Tunay na kaibigan
Kasamang maaasahan
Salamat at tayo'y may pinagsamahan


Plus, I love Jett Pangan. The guy totally rocks.

5. Same Ground by Kitchie Nadal
I basically like her songs. Period. Oh, but this one stands out. This song reminds me of something very personal which I don't want to publicize.

'Cause what I don't understand
Is why I'm feeling so bad now
When I know it was my idea
I could've just denied the truth and lied
Now why am I the only one standing stranded
On the same ground



Five people I'm passing this to:
I hope the names listed below will have time to do their own and pass it to other people.

    Jon
    Jovee
    Tina
    Jajapotz
    Fides






11 June 2005

Not The Same Wavelength, BadTrip

Lech! Kung kailan naman ako nakapag-decide pumunta ng Bohol, naunsyami pa. Kanina kasi ipinaalam (informed) ko kay Mamu na punta nga ko this Friday night. Badtrip kasi ang dami na niya ka-eklatang sinabi. Kesyo maulan; kesyo walang kasama mga kapatid ko sa bahay. Ano ba naman yan?! Always na lang ba ako ang magbibigay? Always na lang ba ako ang iintindi? Hindi ko tuloy alam kung ang worry nya eh yung bagyo (alam kasi niya na ferry yung transpo namin to Bohol, plane na yung pauwi) na baka abutan ako. Feeling ko tuloy, ang habol niya eh yung responsibility na walang magbabantay sa mga kapatid ko (yung isa kasi hindi umuuwi kahit dapat umuwi at yung isa - babae kasi at may bf) at sa bahay (delikado kasing iwan ang bahay namin ng walang tao kapag gabi) namin.

Ako nalang ng ako. Eh bakit sila hindi? Hmp.

2 days ago, nag-isip na ako kung itutuloy ang Bohol kasi nawalan ako ng gana at may mga bagay akong inisip. Umabot sa point na ayaw ko na pumunta muna doon and instead kinonsider ko ang Ilocos. At nakakaloka pa kasi may nagpadala sa akin ng rates para sa trip sa Kota Kinabalu sa Malaysia. Alam ko na may taong gusto pumunta doon para akyatin ang Bundok KK. Ako naman ang habol ko ay ang magbakasyon kahit sa Asia man lang at hindi umakyat sa unang dayo ko sa Malaysia. Iyung kasama ko ok lang kahit hindi umakyat. Decided na sa utak ko iyon nung gabing pinag-isipan ko. Pero paggising ko kinabukasan, nagbago ulit isip ko. Hindi dahil ayaw ko na. Naisip ko lang na kawawa naman yung makakasama ko kasi ang laki ng magagastos niya. Nagiging masyado na akong maluho lately. Well, mas maluho pala. Nakakahiya naman.

Kahapon, na-finalize ko na ang date, itinerary namin. Sinabi ko kay Mamu pero inumpisahan na akong kontrahin. Sa inis ko, sinabi kong hindi na itutuloy. Siempre badtrip.

Kahit inis ako, ok lang. Hindi pa nga ko gaanong badtrip non. May pina-check si Mamu at sobrang worried. Sinabi ko na ganon talaga yon. Ay naku pinilit ang hindi naman talaga. Siempre umabot sa hindi magandang salitaan at pinalabas na naman niya kung gaano ako ka-sama (bad) na anak. Bakit ba ganito kami? Hindi niya ko kilala. Hindi niya ako naiintindihan.

Back to square one. Wala na namang pansinan. Ilang linggo na naman ito.

Ma-pride ako at hindi ako basta-basta nakikipagbati. Sometimes when she tries to be nice during our cold war, it makes me feel guilty, reminding me how wicked I am.

Da**!






09 June 2005

Breakfast At Jollibee

Mawning all,

I'm not really used to taking breakfast (4-5 cups of coffee is breakfast to me already) but I took one. A new
Jollibee franchise has just opened today, as in kaninang 6am. Katabi lang ng building namin, Insular Life po houses Jollibee.

Sarap! Could not resist to try and have my share when a new food establishment opens.
Tulad na lang nung Jollibee sa Ayala Ave. I dined there, too, a day after it opened.
Btw, McDo in Ayala is set to open soon. Hehehe. To think there's already McDo in IBM,
along Paseo.

Siempre if there's Jollibee, McDo has to be there. It does work otherwise.

I had a full stomach. I ordered their longganisa breakfast meal. Their hot chocolate gave me the boost.

Btw, the mascot's there, too. Like a bee, he flew from table to table and elicited infectious smiles and even laughter amongst morning diners. I got my own Jollibee treatment when he patted my shoulders while I was lined up at the counter. I got envious when some of the diners had their photo taken with the mascot. Gusto ko ako din. Ang babaw no? Well, that's the kid in me acting. Sometimes, it is nice to let go of the kid in you once in a while. It is one of the grandest way to start the day.

Just so you'll know, I am more of a McDo person but I got to love my own. That longganisa breakfast meal will make Jollibee my morning dining destination.

Bee Happee!






08 June 2005

Like A Virus That She Was

She felt dejected.

She felt betrayed.

Tried to understand but her emotions could not.
Her rational self tried to reason out but she
still found it unacceptable.

She asked herself many times why he did that.
Why? Why?

She wondered, all the time.
Did those things happen by coincidence
or was it some intended aberration?

They planned things and plans turned to reality.
They had fun. It was supposed to be fun...
for a long time as it took but...

he decided to have another plan and
spend it with a crowd.
Maybe she was supposed to join
but he knew then that she could not.

Sometimes, he planned things with other faces;
just before their plan materialized.

She wondered why he did those things
before and after their plans.
Her mind tried to rationalized why
and her emotions were of gloom and distress.

Is she making sense here?
Sometimes she finds it hard to talk about things,
to say them as she thinks of them.
It bothers her
but she just does not have the might
to spill out her guts.






04 June 2005

Nothing But Star Wars

Before the Star Wars Episode III fever cools down, allow me to post these photos as a memoir of my moderate addiction to this popular movie saga.


Anakin, Obi-wan, Mace Windu



I have adored him since Episode I



I love Yoda and his wisdom



our (Dex & I ) movie ticket during the first screening day



For the love of Star Wars, Dex made his stomach available for Jollibee



Since I was so frustrated to have my photo taken amongst Jedi-clad peepz, Dex surprised me with this. Thanks to Jess!






03 June 2005

People & Stuff

It has been 5 long years since I left the university to face a new chapter of my life as a member of the working class. Right after graduation, except for a few close friends-classmates, I lost touch with my college batchmates. It seemed all of us were too eager to face the challenge of a new, demanding life that was expected to take us all to greater heights of our existence (read: CAREER). To cut the chase, I recently got connected with Marishka, one of the original members of the block I joined when ours was de-blocked. She is one of the nice and funny gals I used to chat and hook up with during my free time and just minutes before our always-late-professor enters the buzzing classroom.

Actually, I knew then where she was working because I accidentally met 3 of my batchmates {
Margaux, JC, Janet} (in 3 separate instances) and each time they let me guessed who among our classmates they were working with. Marish was one of them and I recently learned (straight from her) that she is now connected with ADB acting as consultant. Unfortunately, she is not occupying a regular staff position there, which is pretty usual in the company's hiring scheme. Hopefully, she will be a regular come next year. By the way, Honey Mae & Ela are already regulars at ADB.

On the other hand, I was able to talk to
Arthur through Friendster messaging that he already got married (well, he said Ela & Lemuel did, too) and enjoying married life despite the hard climbs of life. We exchanged information after catching up with the hows, whos, wheres and whys of each other's lives. Right now, he is connected with the Philippine Stock Exchange right after taking a master's degree in Business Management at UP Manila.

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For those who will be jumping the marriage wagon soon, do check this out:




Wedding Videos by Jason Magbanua offer extraordinary services and I guess their output is pretty worth the price you're gonna pay. Anyway, I did not actually come across this site. My so-called 'cousin', Kuya Zedrick, hired their services ala MTV style.

I had the chance to check other videos and this one made me cry and laugh the most. The captured scenes and emotions touched me and sure I wish to have one like that for myself.
Mackie's may-I-cry act was so natural and you know what was going on inside that head of his. Is he one of the rarest male species on earth who showed his actual emotions in public? I think love really has something to do with it; like you cannot live life without it.

Check out
Iris' & Mackie's wedding video. I am sure you will agree with me.

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Congratulations to
Deor - for having a cute, bouncing baby girl named Asha. Hope to see you soon, pal!

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I took a peep somewhere, wanting to know what the stars have in store for me and this was:


This is going to be a significant period for you. There can be turning points in your activities. You have the charm and the opportunities to get you by. A younger colleague will be supportive. He or she may help you in your tasks. Males in general can be a source of luck for you. Travel is likely this period. Your mind is restless and you want to break free from your day-to-day routine for a while.

Males in general as source of luck? Will that be good or bad? Hehehe. Hope it's good. Travel is likely at this period? You bet but I am currently having second thoughts. I have to decide till this weekend if it will still be Bohol or just pick another travel destination. Da** it! Mind is restless and wants to break free from everyday stress? Does it count if I admit that I am always day-dreaming of a stress-free vacation like lazing in the beachside or in a hammock under a big tree with a good book and a pina colada?






Pauleen's Coming Out

Like the expectant & excited father that he has become, bad boy Roy aka dadi Roy sent out invitations to his first-born's baptism. Together with Dex, Chummy, Bajoy, Jenard, Jay, Jherry & Carmi, JR & Apple, we headed to Batangas early Sunday morning (just a day after my birthday). While the rest commuted to Lipa, 4 of us (Chummy, Bajoy, Dex & I) hitched with Jay in his pick-up.

The trip was rather long. The place was kinda remote for a regular commuter. The guys had to hopped in at the back of the pick-up since there was no transport available. There was also a steep, winding drive uphill. I commend Jay's good driving skills.

I do not want to elaborate nor narrate what had happened there. All I can recall were 3 things: nonstop photo shoot, non-stop videoke and eating Roy's handa. By the way, the first-born baby's name is
Pauleen.







02 June 2005

Quite A While

Yeah, it is. What I mean is: since the day I last blogged. I was actually pre-occupied with searching for a new desirable template {it took me a week to find the one that suits me} and publishing the new links thereafter. *sigh* It was a very tedious job, if one might ask.

I still have to fix a lot of stuff here but I need to set it aside for another day or two since I have a real job to do. *me thinks* By the time I am finished with all these, I will find myself bored again with my new site design. *bonkself*

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I am having a hard time with my Bohol itinerary. I just cannot sit down and think about it. A lot of things are going on inside my head and I do not know what to do. Hopefully, everything will get ironed out and I, me and myself will be amongst the *bouncing* Chocolate Hills. Please, don't let the rain fall.

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Despite my efforts to eradicate the thought that I am not getting any younger, the following people did not fail to send their jolly greetings in this rather momentous yet dreadful event of my life:

    Joy - a former colleague who is now based in British Columbia and who seems so in-love these days,

    Joyce aka Kryzelle - one of the people I make sure I meet with everytime I visit dear, old Baguio,

    Gail - a close college buddy who had me as one of her secondary sponsors when she tied the knot with her foreigner-boyfriend,

    Cliff - my ex-boyfriend who did not harbor any ill feelings toward me,

    Em - fellow mountaineer whom I first met at Pico de Loro,

    Andy - co-volunteer in UP Manila,

    Milky - a good friend and co-volt who is my chummy about love chikas,

    Grace - former college classmate,

    Jay of ATMC - mountaineer/globetrotter,

    Ronald - former orgmate and soon-to-be lawyer,

    Levi - one of the funniest people who graced my boring existence,

    Kuya Rage - the guy who always manages to escape from me, hehehe,

    Jon, Jary, LA, Kerwin - my chosen Pex barkada,

    my superiors & colleagues at the office,

    Uriah - one of my high school barkada,

    Ria - former colleague whom I envy because she is starting her career in the right direction {I should have done years before what she is doing now},

    Chummy, Bajoy, JHerry, Carmi, JR - my ATMC pals,

    Vicky of BWI,

    Ma'am Helen of BOI - who had been greeting me since early May and even up to now...hehehe,

    TJ - a former colleague,

    Bel - Dex's sister,

    Jovee - a *devious* & wacky friend,

    and of course, Papi Dex - for being the ever patient, generous, kind and adorable boyfriend, and

    my family (Papa, Mamu, Bambi & Jeff) - for being there.

thank you very much for sharing your life with me as I have with you all.