June 25, 2004

Quoting Work...

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A colleague of mine sent me an animated email of a mother and son camel. The younger camel was asking his mom what was the use of the parts of his body. With pride, the mother camel was beaming explaining everything to him.

But the younger camel blurted out why was it that they were in the zoo when their bodies are equipped with protection from thriving in the desert.

Somehow, the moral lesson of the story struck me home. For the past few weeks, things weren't turning well for me. I think I have reached the point wherein enough is enough. I have given too much of myself and yet, I was left unappreciated. I am not really after being appreciated all the time but that last hit was a blow to my perfect illusion of work. I tried my best but sometimes doing all your best is the worst thing of all. I was disillusioned. I am not an ungrateful bitch. In fact, I owe it to them big time. But I am just someone, a career-oriented girl who has ambitions and who wants to grow and learn in this life. It is also in my personality that challenges thrown at me must fire up my interests. To others out there:


Skills, knowledge, abilities and experiences are only useful if you're in the right place.

Love your job but never fall in love with your company because you'll never know when your company will stop loving you.
June 23, 2004

Burger Crave...

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I am not a burger person. But I have exceptional liking for McDonald's Regular Yum Burger and Wendy's Bacon Mushroom Melt.

I am quite curious with this new burger chain called
Brothers' Burger. I remembered it was featured on TV a long time ago. If I wasn't mistaken, they specialized on broiled burgers.

I had no initial craving for their burgers but now...Well, I had known they have a couple of burger chains here in Manila (Quezon City, I think) but I am opting to take my first bite in Baguio. They recently opened a new chain in the 3rd level of
SM Baguio.

Wanna have a bite with me?
June 23, 2004

Random Things In A Day...

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1. It is our DED's birthday. I sent him an email with animated photos. As expected he replied. I think he worries about getting older each year. I told him that he must look at it on the brighter side: "we get to learn and experience new things as we grow old."

2. This morning, the local people in the office were in a defensive mood versus our office guard. The thing is he does stuff that he has no control over. He decides on things that need to be consulted first. Sometimes, he irritates me but I try to shrug it off lest my working day will be ruined.

3. I did not actually eat lunch today. It was kinda cold and I felt lazy going down the canteen. Good thing I brought a pack of Blue Skies Spring Onion Crackers and a Del Monte Unsweetened Pineapple Juice in can. I even devoured half of my Ruffles Sour Creamed-Flavor Crisps.

4. As I mentioned earlier, I acted like a bitchy girl with the FX driver on my way to work. I also tried to give my bf a headache early in the ... afternoon (afternoon because he went to the office late) when he called me up.

5. My cousin who works for
ChevronTexaco is currently in Singapore. He is serving as a trainor for 2 weeks, I think. After that, he is bound to Thailand. I knew because we were exchanging emails an hour ago. Oh, I envy him. My Thailand leisure trip has been postponed since December 2002. I have been planning since then. Two months ago, I thought that I should first hit off Singapore since Thailand seemed to be elusive for me. Sometimes I wonder why some people can be so lucky!

6. I was checking my personal email account when I received an email from
Leo. It was actually a surprise for me. I never thought he would remember me at all. Normal pleasantries were exchanged.

7. I keep on noticing that the rain has continuously been pouring. The glass windows of the office tell me so. My workstation is in the center of the office. My left side showing the Makati streets has been a shower area. Clouds are darker and the windowpane is never dry. On my right wing, showing the Manila area reveals a drier weather. In fact, it is almost sunny with the clouds whiter slowly making their moves.

8. Major broadsheets overcrowded my working desk. Due to busy days, I almost neglected monitoring the relevant news for my research work. But I am enjoying doing it now because I can browse the other sections aside from the usual, mind-boggling business news.

This is it for now. Back to work.
June 23, 2004

Posted @ Peyups...

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Remember the article I had written here for my mom a week after Mother's Day? Well, I also submitted it to Peyups and it was accepted.

For the link, here it is:
A Day for Mothers.

I had written lots of essay and poems when I was younger but everytime I get published or accepted, there is still the feeling of thrill that whirls inside me. Maybe because I never thought that I wasn't good enough to be read. I still think it that way because somehow it drives me to make my writing a little more "readable."


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I know that it is already a week late to pay tribute to moms but just the same, I would like to write and share something about them. Here goes:

You have carried me inside you for nine months and I wonder how you were able to get through day by day. I was such a heavy load and you still kept on caring for me.

You and I may not always be speaking on the same wavelengths but just the same, you are one of the most special people in my life.

To make our family live in comfort, you help my father to make both ends meet by working your butt off, too. Despite that, you still manage to run the household fairly and keep the family intact. How you do that remains a puzzle to me.

When me and my siblings were a little younger, you used to rant how ‘magastos’ we were and that we don’t know the value of money earned from a hard day’s toil. We even call you ‘kuripot’ and you would launch into a diatribe of where the money goes and how life can be so hard. But you are the person to lavish us with dresses and toys unexpectedly. You are the one who brings us to the mall and let us pick up the things we like.

You are our wonder mom who wakes up early in the morning just to serve breakfast and prepare a healthy ‘baon’ for us to school. From an exhausting day at work, you will go home and make sure that dinner is prepared when we arrive.

You always get so mad with me for going home so late at night that at times we argue because I always tell you that I am already a grown-up. You will get madder because my reasoning irritates you and we would end up hurting over the battle of words. But still, you will check me out in my room and ask me if I have filled in my stomach already. I may be hurt and mad, too but deep in this stubborn head of mine, you love me and that you always want me to be safe from the threats of this world.

When we argue and I start to reason out, you will ask me if UP teaches people how to be rude and obstinate. When your friends and colleagues voice out their high regard for me, you will boast that UP has developed me and I greatly enhanced myself in it. Like other moms, you are proud to say that I schooled in UP.

I love you for being just the way you are. Simple, thoughtful, sweet and with a big heart. It does not bother me a bit whenever you let out that never-ending, ticklish guffaw of yours everytime you watch something hilarious. I also even bawl with you (which is unknown to you) whenever we both watch ‘Maalaala Mo Kaya.’

It still makes me shed tears everytime I remember how hard life is for you when you were a kid and growing up. An orphan at nine and with a life shifting to one relative to another, it still hurts me to know that you went through life’s hardships alone. (Now, you are making me cry again). So, when you had me and my siblings, you always make sure that life will treat us alright. You never fail to show us how you value us, always putting our best interests at heart. Sometimes, I can feel that you are feeling tired from doing it all but you never complain. You are so strong and I admire you for that.

You may never hear me say “I love you” but in my heart and mind, I always utter those 3 deep, meaningful words. I have lost count the number of times I have broken your heart and for that I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you, Mom.

You and I may have a lot of differences but one thing I know and which I want to tell the whole world is that I am proud to have you for a mother and I thank God that He gave you to me.
June 23, 2004

Cool Down...

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Let me cool down myself with these songs.


FRIDAY, I'M IN LOVE
by The Cure

i don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday, i don't care about you
it's friday, i'm in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday i'm in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

i don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday i'm in love

monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday i'm in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday
i'm in love



I MELT WITH YOU
by Jason Mraz

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

You should know better
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
You should see why
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
You should know better
I made a pilgrimage to save this human race
You should see why
Never comprehending a race was long gone by

I'll stop the world and melt with you (let's stop the world)
I've seen some changes and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do (let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you

The future's open wide (The future's open wide)
The future's open wide

hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

I'll stop the world and melt with you (Let's stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do (Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you (Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you (Let's stop the world)
You've seen some changes and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do (Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and I'll melt with you (Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world
I'll stop the world
I'll stop the world
June 23, 2004

Evil Me...

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Sometimes I really cannot help myself but be pissed off in the mornings. And this morning wasn't an exception, either.

Because the FX driver decided to take the Buendia route (which is usually a traffic headache especially when you are in a rush) instead of the Malugay course, I decided to get off at the corner of Buendia-Osmena Highway. But before getting off, I snobbishly told the driver to let the passengers know first his route since it was rarely that we take the Buendia way towards Ayala. With that, I walked away and hailed a cab.

Another thing that had my outspoken ways get the better of me was this incident with my bf. Goodness! Why do I have to feel so bad whenever he comes to work late? I had been texting and calling him to wake up but he never replied back. Oh he did! The thing is he said that he was already up but I thought he had fallen asleep again. To end this story, I let my stubborn head do the reasoning.

That's me in my wicked mornings!
June 22, 2004

Banana is Good...

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Alam nating banana is good, pero alam ba natin ang ibang beneficial effects nito?

Ok. Memory recall. Based on how it applies to me.

Banana can easily uplift your spirit up if you are suffering from
depression. This yellow fruit contains tryptophan, which is a protein that the body converts to serotonin that improves a person's mood.

Hehehe! Now I know that banana can cure
mosquito bites! Next time I climb mountains, expect me to have a banana in my trekking bag. Rubbing the itchy area with the inside of the banana skin will reduce irritation.

For girls out there who suffer from
PMS, why don't you grab a banana and devour them? Containing Vitamin B6, it regulates the level of blood glucose that affects a girl's mood during menstruation.

For a relaxing sensation during a bout of
heart burn, eating a banana will do the trick. It has a natural antacid effect in the body once taken in.

So there you go. A banana a day, keeps the pain away. =)
June 21, 2004

Father's Day Story...

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Will you find me strange if I drop a tear on this one, too? I just cannot help it.

IF YOU WANT TO RIDE IN MY CAR

There was a time when I thought my dad didn't know a thing about
being a good father. I couldn't remember him saying the words, "I love
you." It seemed to me his soul purpose in life was to say "no" to anywhere
I wanted to go and anything I wanted to do. Including getting a car. Some
parents bought their kids cars when they got their driver's licenses. Not
my dad -- he said I'd have to get a job and buy my own.

So that's what I did. "I'll show him," I said to myself. "If he
won't get it for me, I'll get it myself." I got a job as a busgirl at a
very nice ocean-view restaurant and saved every penny I could. And when I
had enough to buy my own car, I did! The day I brought that car home, my
dad was the first one I wanted to show it off. "Look, Dad, a car of my own
-- all on my own. If ever you want a ride, I'll only charge you five
dollars." I offered with a smug smile.

"I see," was all he said.

One day, my father's truck had to go to the shop and wouldn't be
ready to pick up until the next evening. So he needed a ride to work. "If
that five dollar offer is still open," my dad said, "I'll take you up on it."

"Okay, but you have to pay on delivery. I don't accept credit."

"I see, " was all he said.

As I dropped my dad off I watched him, dressed in his work clothes
and boots, getting his tools from the trunk of my car...I could tell there
were more lines than I ever remembered being there before. I thought about
it and realized how hard dad works for his family. My father was a cement
mixer.

Watching him lift heavy tools from the car...there was something
about him that looked a little more fragile than I recalled. In that
instant, it occurred to me that he actually got down on his hands and knees
to sweat over hot concrete to make a living for his family. And he did this
day in and day out, no matter how he hot it got. Never, not once, had I
heard him complain about it. Never had he held it up to his children as
being some great sacrifice he made for us. I thought at how much he must
love us -- so much that he's willing to do this hard labor in hot weather,
and without so much as ever complaining or asking for anything in
return. To him we were "worth" it. And never once did he "charge" us for it.

When he slammed the trunk...he walked over to my window to hand me my
five dollars. I rolled down the window and said, "Good-bye, Dad. Keep
your five dollars. It's on me. Don't work too hard, I love you."

At first he looked puzzled, then in a clumsy sort of way --
pleased. "I won't," he said, then added, "Thanks for the ride in your
beautiful new car." His eyes met mine then glanced away in the direction
of his waiting tools, he cleared his thought and said, "Oh, me too."

As I drove away, I knew "me, too" was enough because my father
showed me his love with his actions, day after day, year after year. In
that moment, I decided I'd give him a ride in my car anytime he wanted--
free of charge.
June 21, 2004

Father's Day Poem...

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This one is a real tear-jerker.

Daddy's Day

Her hair up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.

But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school, eager to tell them all.
About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called, a student from the class.
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare.
Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories, he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing here alone.

'Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart
I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart"

With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star.
And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.

But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.

And to her mother's amazement, she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.
June 21, 2004

Condolence...

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Pagbukas ko ng email kani-kanina lang, isang nakakalungkot na mensahe ang natanggap ko. Sabi ng Director namin, binawi daw ng Maykapal ang buhay ng ama ni Bert kahapon ng umaga. O di ba, ang ironic. Kahapon kasi ay celebration ng Father's Day. Sa totoo lang, muntik na ko mapaiyak. Alala ko kasi papa ko eh. Hindi ko siya binati kahapon, di ko siya inimik. Wala din ako regalo. Hindi kasi namin nakalakihan sa bahay ang maging demonstrative pag dating sa mga ganyan bagay. Pero mula nang nagka-trabaho ako, natuto ako magbigay ng kahit ano pag ganyang mga ocassion. Pero iba kahapon. Wala talaga akong binigay.

May cancer of the throat ang ama ni Bert. Kaya pala siya nag-leave nung April. Na-diagnose ito last March pa. Nakakalungkot talaga.

Si
Bert nga pala ang masipag at mabait naming messenger sa office. Kahit hindi job description niya at nag-request ka ng tulong niya, buong loob pa rin niya gagawin. Hindi ako sanay na humingi ng tulong o kaya mag-utos kay Bert na mag-photocopy ng sandamakmak ng documents pag may seminar ako na ino-organize o ipakuha ang mga bagay-bagay sa loob ng office. Kapag kaya ko at kahit mejo imposible (pero puede pa rin gawin), ako pa rin ang gagawa. Hindi naman kasi trabaho ni Bert yon. Marangal din na trabaho ang ginagawa ni Bert kaya wala sino man ang may karapatan na utusan siya ng basta-basta. Kapag talagang gahol na sa oras, andiyan si Bert. Always ready to help.

Alam ko na tatay ni Bert ang nawala pero alam ko rin kung ano ang halaga ni Bert dito sa office namin. Tagal na rin niya dito. Madami na din ako narining na mga kwento kung gaano siya kabait sa kanyang mga kapatid. Single pa iyan kasi priority niya ang parents niya at mga kapatid.

Ilang linggo rin siya mawawala dito sa office para asikasuhin ang libing ng tatay niya. Ilang linggo din namin hindi masisilayan ang masayahing mukha dito sa office. Pansamantala, walang babati sa akin sa umaga ng mala-Japanese sounding na good morning.

Condolence sa family mo, Bert. God works in mysterious ways no matter how good or bad we may perceive them. But God has plans for us. We just have to let Him do it for us.
June 20, 2004

Rate Your Favorites...

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10 IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR BAG:

1 my planner
2 mobile phone
3 wallet
4 kikay kit
5 keys
6 my working notebook
7 a favorite pocketbook
8 mints/candies
9 tissue
10 cologne


9 THINGS YOU WANT TO ACQUIRE/HAPPEN/DO IN THE NEAR FUTURE: (actually, I revised this one from 9 GIFTS YOU WANT TO RECEIVE THIS YEAR)

1 Sony digital camera
2 try a 'Biyaheng 555' DOT package
3 treat my siblings somewhere (bonding kami =)
4 my written piece published in a broadsheet (online will also do)
5 have a fun time with my boyfriend either in Puerto Galera or Boracay
6 visit Baguio again and meet friends
7 a new mobile phone for my sister
8 a family outing (hope Papa will join us)
9 something for my boyfriend (no idea yet)


8 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS:

1 Caesar's salad from Shakey's
2 sisig courtesy of Gerry's Grille
3 blueberry cheesecake
4 pizza
5 barbecue flavored fries from Potato Corner
6 sinigang
7 Ruffles
8 Dove chocolate


7 OF YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES:

1 Pretty Woman
2 movies by Jetli & Jacky Chan (hehehe, that's too many)
3 my bestfriend's wedding
4 Lilo and Stitch
5 Serendipity
6 Hearts and Souls
7 Ang Tanging Ina


6 QUALITIES YOU WANT FROM A GUY:

1 smart
2 with helluva sense of humor
3 knows what to do with his life
4 responsible
5 outgoing
6 decent


5 QUALITIES YOU DONT LIKE:

1 arrogant
2 irresponsible
3 uses people to advance their status
4 bitchy
5 minds other people's business


4 PERSONS YOU LOVE THE MOST IN THIS WORLD:

1 my parents (can I consider them as one?)
2 my siblings (can I consider them as one, too?)
3 my ever-patient bf
4 my friends (same consideration as #1 & 2 :)


3 THINGS THAT WOULD MAKE YOU REALLY HAPPY:

1 a long vacation somewhere
2 my career plans positively pushing through
3 this one's got to be a secret...


2 PERSONS YOU CAN'T FORGET: (aside from family)

1 people of Hacienda Looc (can I consider this as a collective?)
2 don't have anyone in mind right now


1 PERSON YOU WANT TO LIVE WITH FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE:

1 who else but the one person who can stand my quirks and irks, Dexter =)
June 18, 2004

Totoong Bad Trip...

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Baka mapadaan yung isang tao jan, which I am definitely, absolutely sure na hindi dadaan, ha! Bad trip ako. Past 5pm na no, di man lang tumawag kung susunduin ako. Ang vague kasi ng usapan kanina. Hay, makauwi na nga lang. On second thought, tuloy ko na lang yung gimik ko. Mas maganda pa siguro ang makinig ng poetry sa ilalim ng bituin kesa sa lumanghap sa usok ng mga sigarilyo sa loob ng restaurant.

Gigil ako sa inis. Fine! Work kasi ang reason eh. Maybe a little consideration will do kaya no.

Makitid na kung makitid pero sa totoo lang, nadadala ako sa ganitong treatment.
June 18, 2004

Book Sale Daw...

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Ay bad twip naman o. Mukhang lilipas na naman ang Pex booksale ng hindi ako nakakasali as seller or buyer. I was hoping na sana sa hauz ulit ni Miguel. Kaso hindi eh. Dun gagawin sa studio nung isang pexer na I think na-meet ko na before (though he never knew I existed). If I remember it right, somewhere at Ortigas Extension. Yee! Parang malayo yata yun. Hehehe.

Siguro next time na lang ulit.
June 18, 2004

Uhhh...

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Sometimes I wonder why I keep on asking for answers from a dimwit. I deduce that either I am still hoping that she will give me sensible replies or I just always forget that she is a hopeless case.
June 17, 2004

Shakey's...

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Napapadalas yata dinner namin ni bf ko sa pizza/restaurant na ito. Last week ako nagyaya. Bakit kamo? Nakita ko kasi sa isang ad sa newspaper na ginawa ng daily part ng menu ang ibat't ibang salad. Mahilig kasi ako sa salad eh. Kaya yun, pinagbigyan ko na naman ang food cravings ko. Hehehe. I tried their Caesar's salad. Sa totoo lang, ang sarap niya at malaki ang serving. Siempre pinilit ko si bf na makidukot sa food ko. Since mahilig din ako sa patatas, order din ako ng Mojo's n Dip with a zesty Caesar dressing. Si bf naman, ayun, hehehe, mega-order ng platter of something. Kaloka.

Busog kami pareho at promise, inantok kami sa kabusugan.

Naulit na naman ang pag-trip sa Shakey's kahapon. Dinner ulit kami at siempre excited ako. Hehehe. Pero di na salad order ko. Humirit ako ng Bunch of Lunch, isang plate ng Mojo's n Dip with a garlic/spice dressing yata yun. Si bf naman hindi na platter ang order. Nadala siguro. Hehehe. Order siya ng Italian Rice Toppings (buking ko lang sa inyo na di complete hapunan niyan kapag walang kanin *grins*), spaghetti (kinupit ko yung garlic bread - isa ulit sa pavorito ko) saka meron pa siyang choco shake. Ako nagtubig na lang kasi di ako umiinom ng softdrinks and sawa na ako sa iced tea.

Baka hindi muna kami bumalik doon. Unless, biglang hanapin ng dila ko ang mga iyon.

Alam ninyo kung saan daw kami kain mamaya? Ako hindi ko alam kanina pero sabi niya doon daw sa restaurant na lagi namin kinakainan pagkatapos ko siyang awayin. Siempre, mega-isip ang lowlah mo. Saan nga ba iyon? Binigyan niya ako ng clue at nalaman ko na ang sagot. Yup, sa
Pancake House kami mamaya. Naisip ko nga na totoo yung sinabi niya. Lagi ko nga siya inaaway nun. As in talagang mega-tampo yun. Siempre si bf, mega-suyo din. Kapag mejo kumagat na ako sa bola niya, direcho na kami dun. Minsan kahit tampo pa rin, kahit nakaupo na dun, mamalayan ko na lang na normal na ulit ang lahat. Normal na kasi ang daldal ko na. Sabi nga, the usual me. Hehehe!

Teka nga muna, bakit doon kami kakain mamaya? Hindi naman ako nagagalit o nagtatampo sa kanya ah? *hmm* I cannot see the pattern, my dear. You bettah explain. =)
June 17, 2004

Forgive Me...

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Naranasan mo na ba yung feeling na gusto mo matawa ng malakas pero pinipigil mo? Hindi ba ang sakit non sa tyan. Nakita ko ng boss ko na nagtatago sa harap ng monitor at akala niya eh inaatake ako ng kung ano. Sabi niya, nakita daw niya yung shoulders ko - like undergoing involuntary spasms. Di ko na napigilan kung hindi ang matawa.

At ang may sala? Isang email na aking nabasa. Ang lakas kasi ng tama niya. =) Natawa ako kasi hanep sa pag-English, daig pa nga ang barok eh. Pati opismeyt ko, sobrang natawa din. Ilang beses nga kami nagpalitan ng email dahil doon.

Basta ang ending namin ng usapan ay: "Ibig bang sabihin na ang root word ng hornamental ay horny? juk juk..."

O siya, siya. Alam kong mali ang tawanan ang kamalian ng iba. Humihingi ako ng paumanhin. Pero promise, nakakatawa talaga.
June 16, 2004

Men Are Hard to Please...

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As much as men try to deny it, there's an ounce of truth in the following:

The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;

If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;

If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;

If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;

If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;

If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)

If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;

If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;

If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;

If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;

If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;

If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;

If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;

If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!
& sooo hard to please!

What the hell does GENTLEMENT mean? or is that typo error only?
June 16, 2004
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Back In This Hole...

It is Wednesday today and I have returned from the dead. The moment my ass landed in this soft, high swivel chair of mine, I started "sweeping off" the tons of papers and books that spell out: Work. For a good 3 hours, I seriously focused in accomplishing my deadlines. So far, so good.

15 minutes from now and it will be lunchtime. I am still contemplating if I will be joining my colleagues or just buy something in the canteen and devour it in my work area.

What the hell is happening to me? I used to hold in high regard the firm that has accepted me from the beginning of my participation in the real workforce. But now, I felt so different. Work seems different, too. Now, it lacks the challenge and appeal that once had me hooked; Now, I also lack the enthusiasm and passion to perform and pursue the physical source of my living.

It has been 4 years. But let me clarify. I am not throwing out all these 4 years of toil. I was happy and enjoying myself in the past 3 years. There were changes but the last year was the major one. It was a drastic alteration for the work style that I had been acclimatized to. Despite my hesitation, I blindly accepted the offer. Who was I to complain when all the parties involved in the modification were all beaming and excited? It was only me who was swathed with dread.

That one year has come to pass. I have a decision to make. And so it will happen. Soon enough.
June 14, 2004
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High School...

Nakakatuwa naman. Madalas kami magkausap ng mga former batchmates ko ng high school. Nakakatuwa kasi we are leading a good life. Mas masaya pa kasi mas nakakausap ko sila ngayon compared before. Mahiyain kasi ako nun, super talaga. Wala nga sa mukha ko ngayon eh. Sino ba mag-aakala na ako pala ay may kahihiyan nun. Lolz!

Meron pang iba na nakikipaghulaan kung kilala ko pa raw ba sila. Sabi ko, give me a name and I'll prove it. Meron na nga din nagyaya na dapat daw eh magkaroon daw kami ng high school reunion. Aba! 10 years na rin ang nakalipas noh. 1994-2004. Yeah, a decade has past.

Alala ko si
Philip. Hay naku, tisoy na mamula-mula ang skin. Super quiet and intelligent pa. One of the good boys yan nung high school. Since elementary, classmates na kami. Currently, he is in the country having a vacation. By August daw, he has to go back to Cali. Sana magka-reunion before siya balik dun. I have this gut feel na he is not that quiet anymore, hahaha!

Si
Maricar naman ay married na. She is now Maricar Go-Ilagan. If I remember it right, 2 years na siya attached. Katuwa kasi, I saw the photo of her baby girl, ay, grabe! Mega inggit ako because she's so pretty ha. Sabi ni Maricar, mana daw sa mommy. O sige na nga, wala na ko sinabi. Hahaha. A pretty toddler with a pretty name, Frances Danielle. Hay, inggit talaga. =)

Another one who I regularly emailed with is our consistent valedictorian,
Melody. Ay naku, ang hirap i-displace nitong girl na ito sa list ng honor students. I was part of that list but I never came close to her status. Hahaha! Asa pa ko. Currently, she is working under the Fortune Group of Companies. That's Lucio Tan's business ventures, I think. It is not surprising because she is Chinese and always a tough classmate to beat when it comes to academics. Engaged to be married na rin siya.

Etong isa naman, si
Mel nagpapahula kung kilala ko raw siya. Sabi niya, 4 lang daw sila sa West na may ganon na name. I asked him kung Rommel ba name niya. Hindi pa siya sagot eh. Isipin ko kung sino siya dun. Hehehe.

Huli ko nakausap today was
Claudinne. Kaloka! Aside from Jinks, si Claud ang confidante ko nung officer ako sa CAT. Deputy namin si Claud. Hay, bait iyang babaeng yan. She was strict but fair pagdating sa training. I miss the old times talaga.

Batchmates, kelan tayo magre-reunite? Hehehe.
June 14, 2004
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Tiresome...

I am getting tired of seeing countless surveys being posted at the bulletin board of Friendster. Not the survey itself, but those people who post the same survey REPEATEDLY! It even irritates me to see their very beautiful faces, you know.

There is this one person who never gets tired doing this and she makes my blood boil. What's more infuriating is that she fills up the entire page of the bulletin bored with that nonsense survey of herself. Sometimes, I just look at her face, imagining that I was mercilessly pinching her nose. Now, I am getting violent here.
June 14, 2004
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Touched...

I was checking my 2days accumulated 200+ emails today when I came across this one. It was pretty short but it moved me. It reminded me how life can be so short and how hard it would be to leave someone you love.

A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night.
They loved each other a lot.
Girl: "slow down a little. I'm scared.."
Boy: "No, it's so fun.."
Girl: "please..it's so scary.."
Boy: "Then say that you love me.."
Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug.."
The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on?
It's uncomfortable and it's bothering me while i drive."

The next day, there was a story in the newspaper.
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because
its brakes were broken.

There were two people on the motorcycle,
of which one died, and the other had survived.

The guy knew that the brakes were broken.
He didn't want to let the girl know,
because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared.
Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him,
got a hug from her, put his helmet on her
so that she can live, and died himself...

The last paragraph gave me the kind of shivers that I always hate to feel.
June 14, 2004
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Absent...

I am just taking a day off, which is rightfully mine. After all, I am not really feeling well. Honestly, it sucks.
June 10, 2004
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Envious...

I was cleaning up my personal folder in my corporate email account when I came across my officemate's message re her photos taken during her trip to Malaysia. Nauna pa siya sa akin umalis. I am envious kasi I really wanted to explore Thailand. I prefer it over any other Asian country. I heard how charming Thailand's countryside can be. Basta pupunta ko dun. My plan to go there has long been delayed since 2002. By hook or by crook, my feet will land in the Thai soil not later than February 2005. Itaga mo sa bato! Hehehe!
June 09, 2004
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Getting Ready...

Lately, my actions were directed on accomplishing some tasks related to my “impending departure” from somewhere. Those were just a few of the steps I must tread before venturing out of my sheltered realm. I am not even certain on how to go about it but definitely, I will be traversing a very different trail in the future. Of course, I would want to go back to the same path where I have planted and developed my roots. But it depends if that new territory would make me feel welcome and settled. I hope so.

Anyway, I am not really rushing things. As they say, take one at a time. I would be embarrassed if people would regard me as organized. Absolutely not. I am just trying to avoid probable misgivings. If you can avoid it, the better. In all honesty, I am sort of nervous going through this thing. I do not want to think about what the future holds for me because all I see are pessimistic scenarios. I do not want that. I would rather plunge ( I am using this word instead of lunge) head on thinking about the affirmative side of my every endeavor rather than wallow in the negative probability of its result. But still, it scares me.

Despite all this, I am looking forward to belong in this new life. This time, I promise to do better than well. (Okay, I know this line is incorrect but what I am trying to point is, if I did well before, I will be accomplishing more than just being ‘well.’ Hope my explanation breeze through).
June 09, 2004
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Too Early Today...

I cannot remember when was the time I really made it so early reporting for work. I arrived in Makati by 8:15 and by the time I logged in, it was 8:20. Surprising, isn't it?

Thanks to
Dante. If it wasn't for him, I would have arrived by a mere fraction of a minute before the bundy hits 9.

I was up early, say 6am. I was done by 6:50 and was expecting him to come by at the house before 7. He gave me a ring at 7:15. It was ok since I was able to have a good cup of coffee before leaving the house and had a small chat with my mom at the dining table, telling her what was happening at work. Those were the precious, little moments that hardly come by these days.

Going back to my buddy, we had such a nonstop chat about the younger says of our lives. It was fun, really. We came back reminiscing about high school days and oh, how we laughed at the funny, queer, awkward memories of our pasts. Those were the days, as the old saying goes.
June 09, 2004
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Early Tomorrow...

I am supposed to be banging my head on my soft pillow now since I have an early day tomorrow. My high school buddy who lives nearby will be picking me up tomorrow before 7am. *hmm* That is quite early but since I miss the old times, I'd rather get up and hit the streets with him.

Actually, we bumped into each other a few hours back while I was headed for home. So surprised to see him.
Dante is one of my peers way back from high school. I used to remember that he was the earliest person to go to the house on my birthday. He is one of those snobbish-looking guys I would love to kid and joke and provoke with. Let us say, he is kinda 'pikon.' But now, he has changed. 'Siya na ang namimikon.' Hehehe.

Okay! Got to hit the bed and snooze. He is gonna pick me up at a time when I was supposed to be (just about) finishing my bath.
June 08, 2004
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Pbase...

To my friends who are aware of my photo account in Pbase, please be informed that I have already ceased to maintain the said account due to some unwanted...blah-blah. Hehehe.
June 08, 2004
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Pissed Off...

Hey! It is too early to piss me off, ok? Can you not pick up the latter part of the day? You know, when I will be able to sneak out in time for my dismissal. You drive me insane, everyday of the week! Grr...
June 08, 2004
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One of Those...

Lately, I noticed that I keep on receiving email messages from this guy. At first, I just deleted his messages thinking they were spam mails. I stopped believing it was when I saw my full name written on the message subject. One time, I took a peep. As usual, it contains messages that have something to do with love – love quotes, love tales and stuff like that. I dared replying back, demanding who he is. All I know was that he toils his ass somewhere in KSA. I knew because he used his corporate email and I referred on to the domain name and searched it on the web. I discovered that the company he is working for deals with technology solutions. What type of tech solutions? I never bothered to know.

He has not replied to my query and he keeps on sending me those emails. If he thinks I’m gonna get curious about him, forget it. I am not and not even planning to. If he does not reply, so be it. Who cares, anyway?
June 07, 2004
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Women Wants...

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the
monarch of a neighbouring kingdom. The monarch could
have killed him, but was moved by Arthur's youth and
ideals. So the monarch offered him freedom, as long as
he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur
would have a year to figure out the answer; if, after
a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to
death.

The question: What do women really want? Such a
question would perplex even the most knowledgeable
man, and, to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible
query. But, since it was better than death, he
accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer
by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll
everybody: the princess, the prostitutes, the priests,
the wise men, and the court jester. He spoke with
everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory
answer. Many people advised him to consult the old
witch, only she would know the answer. The price would
be high; the witch was famous throughout the kingdom
for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no
alternative but to talk to the witch. She agreed to
answer his question, but he'd have to accept her price
first: The old witch wanted to marry Gawain, the most
noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's
closest friend.

Young Arthur was horrified: She was hunchbacked and
hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made
obscene noises. etc. He had never encountered such a
repugnant creature. He refused to force his friend to
marry her and have to endure such a burden.

Gawain, upon learning of the proposal, spoke with
Arthur. He told him that nothing was too big a
sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the
preservation of the Round Table. Hence, their wedding
was proclaimed, and the witch answered Arthur's
question thus: What a woman really wants is to be in
charge of her own life.

Everyone instantly knew that the witch had uttered a
great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared.
And so it was. The neighbouring monarch granted Arthur
total freedom. What a wedding Gawain and the witch
had.
Arthur was torn between relief and anguish. Gawain was
proper as always, gentle and courteous. The old witch
put her worst manners on display, and generally made
everyone very uncomfortable.

The honeymoon hour approached. Gawain, steeling
himself for a horrific experience, entered the
bedroom. But what a sight awaited him. The most
beautiful woman he'd ever seen lay before him. The
astounded Gawain asked what had happened.

The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to
her when she'd appeared as a witch, she would
henceforth be her horrible, deformed self half the
time, and the other half, she would be her beautiful
maiden self.

Which would he want her to be during the day, and
which during the night?

What a cruel question. Gawain pondered his
predicament. During the day, a beautiful woman to show
off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of
his home, an old witch.

Or would he prefer having by day a hideous witch, but
by night a beautiful woman with whom to enjoy many
intimate moments.

What would you do?

What Gawain chose follows below, but don't read until
you've made your own choice.

Noble Gawain replied that he would let her choose for
herself. Upon hearing this, she announced that she
would be beautiful all the time, because he had
respected her enough to let her be in charge of her
own life.

What is the moral of this story?

The moral is: If a woman doesn't get her own way,
things are going to get ugly...really ugly...
June 05, 2004
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June 05, 2004
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Hollywood Showbiz...

Reporting LIVE from Hollywood, this is your showbiz diva (showbiz diva daw o!) Francesca (para credible-sounding yung name in connection sa Hwood )!

Oscar awardee,
Julia Roberts is confirmed to be carrying twins and is due to give birth early next year, according to her spokeswoman. Married to cameraman Daniel Moder last July 2002, Roberts won an Academy Award in 2001 for best actress in the movie, Erin Brockovich. It was divulged that having twins run in the Roberts' genes. Her great grandmother and a pair of cousins are twins. Roberts is set to film next week the sequel to Ocean's 11 released in 2000, Ocean 12 in Italy. To co-star with her are George Clooney, Matt Damon and Brad Pitt.

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Obvious ba na muy pavorito ko si Julia? Hehehe.

Alam nyo ba na they have homes in this areas?
In Taos, New Mexico, Venice, California and New York! Graveh na itoh.

Holy Kangkong! Puro mga "papa-ble" mga kasama niya sa next movie niya ah. Mapanood nga ito.
June 05, 2004
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Trabajo...

Dati, maligaya ako
kahit mahirap, mabigat
hala, sige pa rin.

kahit di ako kumain
matapos ka lang,
maipasa sa oras
sige, trabajo pa rin.

kapag di kita matapos
inuuwi pa kita,
kahit pagod na utak ko
sakit na ng katawan ko
kinakaya ko pa rin.

apat na taon na rin lumilipas
pero sa paglipas ng panahon,
sabay noon ang paghawi
ng kaligayang bigay mo.

siguro dahil unti-unti
na ring nawawala sa akin
ang konsepto ng idealismo.

iba na buhay ngayon
mahirap, humihirap
ako, kami nagbabago
pero ikaw, trabajo
ganyan ka pa rin
walang pagbabago.

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Bigla lang pumasok sa isip ko habang nilalayag ang mundo ng
JobStreet.
June 05, 2004
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Gathering...

Some of my newly-acquired friends are planning to have a gathering of some sort in a resto owned by Sir Willy. Slated on June 11, invitees are still choosing between a schedule of lunch or dinner. Of course, I opted for a dinner schedule since I cannot sneak out on a work week. Vicky and I are kinda excited, though. Time to meet up...hehehe. Wish it will be in the evening. *crossfingers*


Vacation...

Wowow! I haven't checked it yet but I heard that June 14 is a declared holiday. Read: GMA's so-called Holiday Economics. Good for me. Hopefully, it is true. *evilgrin*
June 05, 2004
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Boredom...

I have nothing significant to do today. I woke up an hour after lunchtime. No plans to rush to anywhere since the skies look so gloomy & ominous. Heavy rains seem to threaten the access roads in a while and I don't want that. My boyfriend is out somewhere in Batangas splashing in the sea. Ironically, their company is having an outing today. Of all days! Hehehe.

So, I am just here in the company of my desktop. Just checking a lot of stuff online esp my 3 email accounts.

Okay, so it rained now. Heavy pouring outside.
June 05, 2004
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Pathetic...

Since I am drumming up my plans for a "new future" for myself, I went to UP to acquire a new set of TOR. I have already applied, paid twice but everytime I claim it, the people at the Office of the Registrar would declare that I had no file there as I requested. Sometimes, I just cannot help but utter a silent curse.

Anyway, the university is beaming with lots of students again. Oh, how I missed those days. While I was gazing at everyone, I remembered the same, old feeling - lining up, rushing here and there, chatting along the way, gaining new friends while waiting for your name to be called & even uttering unnecessary words due to frustration. The old times and how I miss them.

But what saddened me was the current state of the university. I may not be in regular contact with my alma mater but I can still sneak out some news from here and there.

CAS is undergoing a 5-month construction activity and all 'tambayans' housing organizations are displaced and hence, relocated to the old NEDA Building. I wonder how can they fit in there. It is such a cramped space and now, the admin is congesting it all. What is so pathetic is that CAS now lacks classrooms for 30 classes and all possible vacant spaces will be used as classrooms! Can you even imagine taking classes in the GAB lobby? How can you even concentrate taking up a complicated subject when other students are passing by, chatting & giggling along the way? How conducive your first semester class will be!
June 05, 2004
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Another Keating Favorite...

She Believes In Me

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night and play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home
All alone

While she lays dreaming
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift up to the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss
And I say it's alright
And I hold her tight

And she believes in me
I'll never know what just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays waiting
I ask myself why do I hurt her so
What calls me on along this lonely road
Why don't I turn around and head back home
Where I belong

While she lays crying
For she knows how my heart is ripped in two
I'm torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all and I'd give it if I could
God, her love is true.

And she believes in me
I'll never know what just what she sees in me
I told her someday
If she was my girl,
I could change the world
With my songs,
But I was wrong.

But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray,
I will find a way, find a way

While she lays sleeping
While she lays sleeping for me
June 03, 2004
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Senti...

While waiting for the download time of the internet, I was reading this poetry book. I once again came across this never-fading poem of Elizabeth Barrett Browning.



How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints -- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! -- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

It reminded me how one can love so deep and how love can be so grand. =)
June 03, 2004
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Belated To Me...

To my friends who had belatedly sent their greetings, thank you. I really appreciate it.

Mayk ---> serious but funny guy & vice-versa
Jawee ---> ever-friendly moderator of Chosen
Marlon ---> reminds me of Puerto Galera...hehehe

Thanks, guys for remembering.
June 03, 2004
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Where Have They Gone...

For the 2nd time around, I had unknowingly lost my earrings. They did not cost me a fortune but I treasure them for real. I rarely wear fancy accessories for they make me itch and later on, cause me small scars.

When I saw them on display, I told myself that I would just keep it since they were so cute. But I found myself wearing them on since it matched the attire that I wore. Wearing them never caused me any discomfort.

I am still checking the accessory shop where I bought those earrings. I wish that one of these days, they will come out on stock. That will truly bring a smile on to my otherwise, stressed disposition.
June 03, 2004
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Talk About Beauty...

I heard a few hours ago that our candidate for the Miss Universe beauty pageant did not make it in the top 5, much less in the top 10 finalists. I wonder if she was the girl who was readily and generously pampered by former beauty queens, Gloria Diaz and Charlene Gonzales, when she won the local crown. She was given advice, tips and I am not really sure if she was given a little training in "the makings of a future beauty queen."

Held in Ecuador, a total of 5 beautiful women were chosen by a panel of 11 judges. They are:


Miss Australia - Miss Universe 2004
Miss USA - 1st RU
Miss Puerto Rico - 2nd RU
Miss Paraguay - 3rd RU
Miss Trinidad & Tobago - 4th RU (the only black beauty among the 5)

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